maybe you think that different is weird, but for me it's special.

i get trough something lately. yes i am very blessed for myself and most importantly to Allah too. i ensure i'm okay with critics, but it's not a 'critic' that i expected because it's more like making someone down. critics are supposed to be making us more spirited, to be a better person. i like being different, that's a special thing about me. that's what making me different with other people, it's because of my difference. example: my voice. am i wrong to have this kinda voice? i'm happy to have this voice altho' not everyone's enjoy to hear it, it brings me luck. so hell to the no peepz if you think that my voice is worse than someone who has a worse score than me. maybe i have a better performance than her. so bitch please, and get off of my way.

really matters.

something's wrong with someone that I didn't even expected. it's really scary and I'm flawlessly scattered about it. I'm being anxious right now, what's really happening? god, please give me the right direction. I know, it's bot about friendship stuffs but it's about family and family is the most important thing for me. please god, give me some guidance. -me.

fucking huge.

I am so in love with America's next top model right now. I don't know why, it's just came blast out my mind and suddenly, I'm obsessed. I really love Tyra Banks from a long time ago, and I've bought the fourteenth and the fifteenth cycle long time ago too. but I've started to get bored about them, about their shoots, about their dramas (sorry for this-_-) because I've watched it over and over again, so I decided to went to itc fatmawati to bought some new DVDs. and it turns out, I bought antm 12th cycle, because the 13th cycle was sold out hate it. and the girls from the 12th cycle were all hugely gorgeous! especially London and Natalie! I love them. but still, I adore Raina from the fourteenth cycle the most. kisses, kisses, kisses!

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meaningful.

"I don't want to be on a team, where I only appear to belong, I'd rather be a part of a club that's proud to have me, like glee club." -Quinn Fabray, 1x12, Mattress

"Cause I'm just trying to be really, really honest with people when I think that they suck, you know?" -Santana Lopez, 2x14, Silly Love Songs

pain.

all that I'm gonna say are these two words for myself: Diet sucks.

yes, it's me who convince myself to do this freak thing. but please, skinny is my body gonna look like! so I have to do diet. I brought only yoghurt, fruits, and vegetables and also juice to school. my mom usually brought me potatoes and broccoli to school, but I stopped her to do that. and she told me that I don't have to do diets, just don't eat at night and avoid snacks. no, that's easy, I thought. but I started to eat a lot of fruit and vegetables ever since. yeah, and a lots of sit-ups too, although I did it sometimes. oh yes, and yoga program from my iPad. but gosh, please I want to have my skinny body like all the models have hahahaha!

rest in peace.

this morning, my bunny Zazu had just passed away. I was crying actually, but now I feel better. I know this is the best for her. but I really regret all of things I've done to Zazu because, I barely look after her not often. and I'm not going to find another pet to have. I'm too lame for pets. but I will not forget the memories that we, you zazu, and me have. You always be the best pet I've ever met in this world.
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your buddy.