underwater madness.

if you can't describe things with words, you shall express it through music.

face to face and heart to heart
we’re so close, yet so far apart
i close my eyes i look away
that’s just because i’m not okay

but i hold on, i stay strong
wondering if we still belong

will we ever say the words we’re feeling
reach down underneath and tear down all the walls
will we ever have a happy ending
or will we forever only be pretending
will we always always always be pretending

how long do i fantasize
make believe that it’s still alive
imagine that i am good enough and we can choose the ones we love

keeping secrets safe every move we make seems like no one’s letting go and it’s such a shame cause if you feel the same how am i supposed to know

maybe you think that different is weird, but for me it's special.

i get trough something lately. yes i am very blessed for myself and most importantly to Allah too. i ensure i'm okay with critics, but it's not a 'critic' that i expected because it's more like making someone down. critics are supposed to be making us more spirited, to be a better person. i like being different, that's a special thing about me. that's what making me different with other people, it's because of my difference. example: my voice. am i wrong to have this kinda voice? i'm happy to have this voice altho' not everyone's enjoy to hear it, it brings me luck. so hell to the no peepz if you think that my voice is worse than someone who has a worse score than me. maybe i have a better performance than her. so bitch please, and get off of my way.

really matters.

something's wrong with someone that I didn't even expected. it's really scary and I'm flawlessly scattered about it. I'm being anxious right now, what's really happening? god, please give me the right direction. I know, it's bot about friendship stuffs but it's about family and family is the most important thing for me. please god, give me some guidance. -me.

fucking huge.

I am so in love with America's next top model right now. I don't know why, it's just came blast out my mind and suddenly, I'm obsessed. I really love Tyra Banks from a long time ago, and I've bought the fourteenth and the fifteenth cycle long time ago too. but I've started to get bored about them, about their shoots, about their dramas (sorry for this-_-) because I've watched it over and over again, so I decided to went to itc fatmawati to bought some new DVDs. and it turns out, I bought antm 12th cycle, because the 13th cycle was sold out hate it. and the girls from the 12th cycle were all hugely gorgeous! especially London and Natalie! I love them. but still, I adore Raina from the fourteenth cycle the most. kisses, kisses, kisses!

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meaningful.

"I don't want to be on a team, where I only appear to belong, I'd rather be a part of a club that's proud to have me, like glee club." -Quinn Fabray, 1x12, Mattress

"Cause I'm just trying to be really, really honest with people when I think that they suck, you know?" -Santana Lopez, 2x14, Silly Love Songs

pain.

all that I'm gonna say are these two words for myself: Diet sucks.

yes, it's me who convince myself to do this freak thing. but please, skinny is my body gonna look like! so I have to do diet. I brought only yoghurt, fruits, and vegetables and also juice to school. my mom usually brought me potatoes and broccoli to school, but I stopped her to do that. and she told me that I don't have to do diets, just don't eat at night and avoid snacks. no, that's easy, I thought. but I started to eat a lot of fruit and vegetables ever since. yeah, and a lots of sit-ups too, although I did it sometimes. oh yes, and yoga program from my iPad. but gosh, please I want to have my skinny body like all the models have hahahaha!

rest in peace.

this morning, my bunny Zazu had just passed away. I was crying actually, but now I feel better. I know this is the best for her. but I really regret all of things I've done to Zazu because, I barely look after her not often. and I'm not going to find another pet to have. I'm too lame for pets. but I will not forget the memories that we, you zazu, and me have. You always be the best pet I've ever met in this world.
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your buddy.

oreos.

oh no. I'm madly obsessed with oreos. especially oreo star. I think i'll be fat if I eat them more and more everyday. but I like it. it tastes more like cookies and cream, not like oreo. hm, it's a bit confusing. I want a lot of oreos but.... no. I will be fat soon. so, what should I do? oh yes right, I'll eat oreos as much as I want but after that I'll have a lot of sit ups and trainings. ha ha ha

thriller, three-ler!

Darkness falls across the land
The midnight hour is close at hand
Creatures crawl in search of blood
To terrorize y’alls neighborhood

And though you fight to stay alive
Your body starts to shiver
For no mere mortal can resist
The evil of the thriller

it's over now.

victory, victory, victory. It's finally done. it's over. I moved on. I'm very glad about this and lately, I've changed. I started to be more patient, and I pray five times a day in the right way. and i think that's true, I mean if we pray, we will be better for ourselves and for other people as well. and I felt that, after I pray everything gets better and better. thank you Allah for all these things. I really enjoy my life that I have right now, with nothing holding me back. no one I'm in to so that means I'm not going to be hurt. I don't have any crush right know, and I know this could be weird but I feel better. I think a lot about it to move on, major lot. and I've decided I can. and it's true! but, wait. not really. I still have a crush on.... well forget it. haha, @frankenteen I'm still waiting for you.

bieber experience.

puck: we want in
sam: in what?
artie: the justin bieber experience
sam: it's a one man band
mike: so.... expand.

my furry fucklentine.

without asking, yes this is 14th of February 2011. valentine's day. nothing's happening to me. I thought that maybe some miracles would happen today, but it turns out blank. gosh, I saw my friends (girls) were buying these cakes for they're boyfriend. doh, me? who I've supposed to give if I bought one before? please. and I hate to be this way. I like to be single but not at all time my feelings catch up the same. you can say it, I'm an unstable person. I changed my mind and my opinions often. but really. on valentine? single? that's something weird. haha, will a miracle come to me? we'll see. happy valentine's day everybody! (altho it's just cause a heartbreak for me) x.o.x.o

playing dirty with black and white.

hey there hottie.

bimensi x.

such an unforgettable four days! like I've said before. I'm back. yes, and I'm here to report to you about Bimensi. #9 have so much fun. finally, I felt that we all stand together as one. thank god I'm a part of #9. from 17th until 20th of january were the best memories that we, ninth generation have so far. thank you for all the coach, and most pf all, thank you, Bimensi x :')

egyptian acex labspart.

We’re positive that you guys are all pumped for this upcoming event just as much as we all are! Though it’s a shame that not all of you are familiar and aware of the event “ACEX/LABSPART” therefore for this reason we have decided to give a quick explanation regarding this event.

This thrilling occasion is actually divided into two events which are ACEX and LABSPART. In conclusion these are two entirely different events which are combined into one. This inter-school event organized by Labschool Junior High School is open to elementary school and junior high school students all over Indonesia. With a theme that is Ancient Egypt, this event will be held throughout February and March.

“Join us on an Egyptian Adventure, with pyramids to discover and a throne to conquer”
for more info, just follow us on twitter and visit our blog. hope you guys like it!

such a long day.

today's been a long day. I have pra-bimensi to attend. you know that before well like about tomorrow I wrote a post that I told you guys, I hate to attend Bimensi. but I guess I'm wrong entirely. Bimensi will be totally fun. and a good news is, I don't really feel disgusted when I lay down on the grass, so I just feel ok with soil. but still not the wet one, ha ha.

believe it or not.

my wish is incredibly already stand in front of my eyes. hard to believe, beside glee that I wish to come or at least 'stop by' to indonesia, I wish bruno mars to do the same too. but sad glee's not really come nowadays. but bruno mars? I think he will come! he tweeted about an hour ago that he have a plan, that he'll go here. I just can't wait.

@BrunoMars: we are planning my first show in indonesia as we speak, so see you soon

of course I will. save a ticket for me!

bimensi is coming soon.

so bimensi is early coming soon. I don't know what'll happen, but as long as we're not there yet, I don't want to go. I hate to get dirty, honestly. but we'll see. just wish me luck, I'm kinda sure about 30 percent it might be fun. I'll tell you everything about my bimensi experience after I've join it. it's gonna be the next monday, January the 17th. I'll report you soon.

oh, how inspiring.

scandalous much.

mask of zarra.

if a boy wore a mask, we should call him zorro. but this time, it changed. girls can wear masks too. we'll call it, zarra.

-A

top 5 songs of the week.

1. Only Girl (In The World) - Rihanna
2. The Time (Dirty Bit) - Black Eyed Peas
3. We R Who We R - ke$ha
4. Whip My Hair - Willow Smith
5. Grenade - Bruno Mars

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musikal laskar pelangi.

yeaay, so my holiday was now a past. and I didn't go anywhere, which is bad and boring. I mean I didn't go anywhere outside Jakarta. but I actually went to Taman Ismail Marzuki to watch Musikal Laskar Pelangi. it was pretty fun! but the bad news was, after I finished watching musikal laskar pelangi, the next day was my first day at school. hell no.

-A