can't handle.

invisibility.

I am trap in this wide world. I'm getting harsh and tired about my singing course, which is I felt it was sucks. I mean I really can't handle it anymore this time. I wanna be free. I want to spend my holiday having so much fun with my family, hang out with my besties, and other things. I don't want my holiday just attacked by some show that interrupt myself-confidence. BOOM! I didn't have any relax minute anymore. I am not an elastic thing. I am still a human being.

hate the life I live.

I hate my life ironically. I am forgettable. I am lost. I loose myself. I loose my soul. I didn't know who I am. I feel ill. gosh, why I felt this way. I need me back hurriedly.

get well.

get well soon grandpa. I love ya. I miss you so much. I know now you're sick and have to stay in hospital for a while, but I guarantee you will be better soon. lotso love :*

marry you.

It's a beautiful night,
We're looking for something dumb to do.
Hey baby,
I think I wanna marry you.

Is it the look in your eyes,
Or is it this dancing juice?
Who cares baby,
I think I wanna marry you.

Well I know this little chapel on the boulevard we can go,
No one will know,
Come on girl.
Who cares if we're trashed got a pocket full of cash we can blow,
Shots of patron,
And it's on girl.

Don't say no, no, no, no-no;
Just say yeah, yeah, yeah, yeah-yeah;
And we'll go, go, go, go-go.
If you're ready, like I'm ready.

I'll go get a ring let the choir bells sing like oooh,
So whatcha wanna do?
Let's just run girl.
If we wake up and you wanna break up that's cool.
No, I won't blame you;
It was fun girl.

in a world of strings, we are the designers.

exoplanetary dreamscapes.

cleopatra-ish.

it's consequence.

i just find this. and this is true. you know what? when you were asked by a boy, especially to the one you have a crush on, you'll be happy if he asked you to be his girlfriend, of course. but this is obviously humiliating, when the boy asked to the girl, but the boy didn't actually have a 'special' feelings for the girl. it hurts. literally. even more shame thing is when the boy actually asked you in front of you (not trough chat or sms), and let everybody at school watch. it's really sweet outside, but really bitter inside. girls know that.

did you ever have a so-you-called best friend of yours that actually have a crush with the boy you like but she didn't tell you, because she's afraid it might hurt your feelings? I gave you some solution. it's not that I already have some experiences about this topics, but I actually know the how-to-get-away-of-this-problem thingy. well, it's better to know it from her, than other people, isn't it? so, start talking heart to heart with your best friend. if you lost contact, it's dangerous. be careful.

last thing, have you ever know that a guy can be with two girls in the same time? not really that thing matters, but this is different, honey. still the same with the topic above, when your boyfriend, or worse now already your ex-boyfriend was with you before, but when he had a relationship with you, he was actually crushing on your best friend.

nah. don't really mind this all girls problems about boys to hardly. it's only some of best friend of boyfriend were like that criteria. about 40% of them still have a good manors, and good understanding to her best friend of girlfriend. P.S: based on my elementary best-friend's love life. be strong honey :(

realistic.

untitled.

I am no more post some of my daily life here. I'm now gonna start to make this a picture blog. my blog is weird. and I thought it would be more awesome-nistic if I make it a picture blog, a huge fantastic photograph. well it's coming soon so, y'all just wait.

awesomeness.

break fasting with ex 7d

oh well, hey there my step-family, miss you guys fuckin' badly :'(

my guidence.

"soon to be the next teen vogue or even vogue creative director". that's always came up to my mind for my future. I finally found one. my officially future. creative editor at vogue/teen vogue magazine. so, it's my old book actually, not really old. it gave me an introduction of how to be an art director/ a creative director. like for example, an interview with aoife wassel, the creative director of teen vogue. and I'm very glad to have this book it's very useful.

"because i didn't know anything, i could just do what I wanted, and I was free to think a little more openly" -alexander wang

for me, it was inspirational sentences. we can try everything we want. just because we don't know anything. doesn't mean we just sit and can't have some experiment. wrong. better, that's an opportunity for us to try everything we can and everything we want to do. well done alexander wang!

nylon.

I'm fallin' love with nylon magazine. it's way cooler than many fashion magz i've ever brought. It was complete issues for latest fashion icon, top trends outfit, and many more! but also, nylon magazine still have some other glossary instead of fashion. and so, I checked some of fashion blogs nowadays, and i found diana rikasari's halloween outfit that she made was posted on nylon. way cool. anyway, why it have to be "the it. girl" sentence in my title blog? well, when I saw nylon's magazine blabla edition, idk what edition, they wrote the it in the top-right of the cover. I guess it's a good sentence. like unique and there was a meaning like, power of something haha. so it gave me an inspiration. okay so here are some nylon magazines picture! aaw, oh and FYI if you wanna know more about nylon, you can just go to nylon website for more fantastically fashion things. well, I found this nylon cover magazines from google (I googled :D) but this is the old one. it's like from 2009. but it's okay right? sorry, for this :(

little riding hood.

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Model: Saskia Amalia
Photographer: Adelia Karamina

this photographs is just for fun :D