underwater madness.

if you can't describe things with words, you shall express it through music.

face to face and heart to heart
we’re so close, yet so far apart
i close my eyes i look away
that’s just because i’m not okay

but i hold on, i stay strong
wondering if we still belong

will we ever say the words we’re feeling
reach down underneath and tear down all the walls
will we ever have a happy ending
or will we forever only be pretending
will we always always always be pretending

how long do i fantasize
make believe that it’s still alive
imagine that i am good enough and we can choose the ones we love

keeping secrets safe every move we make seems like no one’s letting go and it’s such a shame cause if you feel the same how am i supposed to know

maybe you think that different is weird, but for me it's special.

i get trough something lately. yes i am very blessed for myself and most importantly to Allah too. i ensure i'm okay with critics, but it's not a 'critic' that i expected because it's more like making someone down. critics are supposed to be making us more spirited, to be a better person. i like being different, that's a special thing about me. that's what making me different with other people, it's because of my difference. example: my voice. am i wrong to have this kinda voice? i'm happy to have this voice altho' not everyone's enjoy to hear it, it brings me luck. so hell to the no peepz if you think that my voice is worse than someone who has a worse score than me. maybe i have a better performance than her. so bitch please, and get off of my way.

really matters.

something's wrong with someone that I didn't even expected. it's really scary and I'm flawlessly scattered about it. I'm being anxious right now, what's really happening? god, please give me the right direction. I know, it's bot about friendship stuffs but it's about family and family is the most important thing for me. please god, give me some guidance. -me.

fucking huge.

I am so in love with America's next top model right now. I don't know why, it's just came blast out my mind and suddenly, I'm obsessed. I really love Tyra Banks from a long time ago, and I've bought the fourteenth and the fifteenth cycle long time ago too. but I've started to get bored about them, about their shoots, about their dramas (sorry for this-_-) because I've watched it over and over again, so I decided to went to itc fatmawati to bought some new DVDs. and it turns out, I bought antm 12th cycle, because the 13th cycle was sold out hate it. and the girls from the 12th cycle were all hugely gorgeous! especially London and Natalie! I love them. but still, I adore Raina from the fourteenth cycle the most. kisses, kisses, kisses!